Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Insecure Writer's to the Rescue
Today is a great day for having an intervention on myself, I'm lucky it is the first wednesday of the month. Those of you who have visited before know I'm usually positive and try to be uplifting in my posts but today I'm feeling down and I just want to let it all come out of my chest.
Yesterday I received a rejection letter from Shock Totem making it five rejection mails hanging on my inbox for two different stories. I know, I'm a wimp. Many people go through years of rejection before hitting the gold vein. I know, but it just does't help. I've been thinking hard about my career as a writer and I only have a short story published in an anthology and a novel. Not much to call it a career. My family keeps trying to make me feel better by stressing how many writers out there wished to have at least one pieced published, and I'm really happy and proud of that, but I can't hide behind my only two successes. I need to have more. I need to write more, I need to be better, and I need to have more time.
In two years I've written eight stories, two of them are out there being constantly rejected and the other six need a lot of work to be really finished. That's all I've done and I can't help but feel it is way too little. I've been concentrating so much on my blog trying to connect with other writers and readers, but now that I think about it, I don't really have much to offer. How depressing.
Don't worry too much for me though. I'm not one to sulk forever and I'm giving me until today for feeling sorry for myself. Then I'll start looking for new places where I can submit. But, when do you know a piece is dead? When do you know it will never happen for that specific story and move on? Those questions torture me and as off now I'm thinking of sending those stories to a couple more places. If they get rejected again, then that's it. I'm pulling the plug on them and moving to the next stories.
I've also decided that I won't dedicate as much time to blogging. When april is gone and with it the craziness of the A to Z challenge, I'll dedicate much more time to reviewing for Dark River Press (that means, to read more) and to finish my second novel. Those are my priorities and I have to concentrate on that or I will never be anything more than a two-time-published author.
I hope your month is going a lot better than mine and I hope next month I will be the happy-go-lucky gal I'm used to be. In the meantime, thanks for reading and caring.
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